2012 - end of the world? beginning of my life

I've been living in Limbo, self denial, my own world. However you want to term it.

I've been at my job for NEARLY FIVE YEARS!!!! and considering that I considered quitting after the first day... I believe that I am resilient. or am an expert procrastinator. Either way, they're good terms to describe myself - resilient and expert that is... the others can be forgotten.

Its the fear of the unknown. The lack of self confidence. As much as we joke about how some people have a knack for public speaking and yet actually don't say much, I envy them for their bullshit and their self-belief that they can do anything. If push comes to shove, I KNOW i have the chops.. I just don't think I do most of the time. And those bullshitters seem to get their way- though mostly I suspect its because people want to just shut them up.

So 2012... the year where most have prophesied the world to end... is it the year I begin mine?

So this year...

1) New Job?

2) New Place?

3) Blog? at least as a diary to myself - hence to blog about my past experiences and how it compares to where I am now. No one has to read it but myself but the reminders are good. and the memories... if someone else reads them and comments GOOD... then at least I can't say that I'm talking to myself. If not, I still like the idea of being able to see where I've been - before I start to lose the memories.